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I suppose I should introduce myself; let you know who I am and how I got here, maybe even a reason for why you should stay for a while. 
My name is Lia and let's just say I live on an island in the Mediterranean; because I do. 
I am nearly 21 years old and failing miserably at this little thing called 'life'. I began screwing up at around 7 when my parents got divorced and the dumbwad of a spleen called her new husband moved in. I began obsessively exercising and eating less and less. By 12 I was diagnosed with full blown Anorexia Nervosa. I hit my lowest weight of 99 pounds. Only to find out a few years later than I also have BPD. I get on with life, trying my hardest to push through the intrusive thoughts but lately they have been overbearing. 
I went on a few platforms to journal my thoughts but got deleted for being too triggering. So, I am saying a trigger warning now : disordered eating behaviours, drug and alcohol abuse and general BPD ish which can be pretty freaky. So don't come for me. 
This is a journal, if you will, for my thoughts and daily activities.


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