DAY 8 - HSGD

I woke up today full of regrets for eating 500 calories so late at night last night but at least I waited until my fast was over, plus, I lost weight! 180.4 lbs bitches! First mini goal weight hit! Now we just have to keep going to 170 to hit the first official goal weight. Today on the HSGD I am meant to have 950 calories but that is so much so I will try (as always) to go much under. I won't stop until I can see my ribs.  

5:00 pm : So for lunch I was planning on having the cafe misto from Starbucks with almond milk, but my family wanted to go out for a dinner. I ended up having 1/4 of the coffee (15). then I ordered the thing which looked the least calorific at the restaurant which was a tuna salad, from the plate I took 0.5 cup lettuce, most of an onion, an egg white and about a cup of tuna. I added my own dressing which I made out of vinegar, ketchup and mustard and managed to only eat a total of 268 calories all day! I think I won't eat anymore for the day as it's already getting late and I'm not hungry but if I need to eat to not binge, I'll have under 100 calories. I am so proud of my self control around all the high in calories and fat food that was being offered to me along with my discipline to scrape off the fatty parts of my meal and without even touching then, scrapping them aside for someone else. 

8:08 pm : I hate myself for what I did. I could've just not eaten, I could have had a shower and shut up but no I had to stuff my face with a pasta salad. I measured everything out and I've had 791 calories today. I bet I defo gained and I deserve it. 

Now I have to fast for another 48 hours so let's do this! 

11:30 pm : I have decided to interrupt the HSGD tomorrow in order to go on a 4 day fast. I am so sure I will gain tomorrow so I am going to fast while working out. I'm gonna drop this weight like it's nobody's business. On my fast I will be having 2 ltrs of water, 5 teas, 3 coffees and 1 diet soda every day for the duration of the fast. I am so excited.