My Weight Loss Journey

Okay, I'll be real with you; I fucked up. I binged to my hearts heart's content last night then pasted out without going to the party; what a mess.  BUT; today is a new year, a new week, a new day, a new me. And I will make the most of this rare opportunity to experience 2018 while getting my beauty sleep by starting this year right with a 7 day fast (168 hours). I was inspired because of a post I saw on Tumblr  I am more motivated than ever . 3:10 pm : I am ready for 'dinner' with my extended family for New Years and by 'dinner' I mean they eat and I watch. I am wearing a pastel plated skirt, black tights, high heeled beige boots, a similar in color baggy sweater tucked in and a long faux fur jacket. I hate the body these clothes cover but I love the aesthetic of it all. I went for a 3 kilometer hike to the very top of a mountain and burned near to 200 calories. My intake has been 2 litres of water and 2 black iced coffees.  I have also decided to ma...

179.6. I've lost 0.2 lbs since my last weigh in but I think that has to do with my binge 2 days ago and me not weighing myself afterwards. So let's just say I got back to my LW/CW and going to go lower. I would say I'm going to fast today but I say that everyday. I just want to go into the new year calorie free. I have a party to go to after the countdown, my very first New Years party with my boyfriend and all my friends. I know no matter what I wear I will look like a whale but not eating until then will maybe help even just a little. 12:05 pm : Okay so I know I said I wasn't going to do any more diets buuuuut a friend of mine said she wanted to start the ABC diet and I had been meaning to see if I could do it (I haven't seen anyone complete it before, even though I'm sure people have)  So I wanted to push myself and drop the extra pounds. I'm making today day 1 with 500 calories or less. I'll post the entire diet down below . 5:45 pm : I haven...

I'm too scared to weigh myself. I don't think I want to know. I am water fasting today. I need to at least do something right and that is losing weight. I will not go into the new year on an full stomach. My intake up to now ( 1:16 pm ) is 2 bottles of water . 3:28 pm : I'm 13 hours into my fast and at 2 litres of water. I have consumed nothing but water today and feel amazing! I just know I can stick to it. Tomorrow morning I will weigh myself. I am not starting the New year with another diet, I will walk through the threshold with all the willpower of 2017 following me.  8:00 pm : I'm 17 and a half hours into my fast and going strong. I've had 3 litres of water going on 4 and two pieces of sugar free gum. I have lounged around the house all day and did nothing but I don't think it's safe to work out when water fasting. Tomorrow I have a party to go to and I need to be ready. 9:00 pm : I broke my fast at 18 hours and 15 minutes with 83 calories of sal...

So yesterday I completed my fast and am now at 34 hours of not eating. Today it is my friends birthday so we will be going to the mall then a forest to party! I will be fasting today as well. I decided to drop all the diets and just stay under 500 calories daily when not fasting. But this time I'm going for a 96 hour fast. I need to do it. For myself.  12:03 : I weighed myself and I'm finally in the 170's!! 179.8 lbs . Fasting is so worth it.  3:13 : I broke my fast at 38 hours with half a honey mustard chicken wrap my dad is making me eat ugh (137) 9:04 : I had one of the best times of my life. I made a ton of new friends and we danced for aaages. I brought vodka and they brought pizza and I had none of it. I'm still at 137 calories because all I had was water! Now I'm going to rest with a nice detox tea then sleep.  11:29 : I hate myself for what I did. I binged on two slices of pizza (692.8) calories  and one portion of BBQ sauce (60) calories and feel ...

Literally everything is going wrong today. I don't know what to do. I maintained and I'm so pissed about that and life in general. I had a bottle of water for breakfast and now a black coffee. Fuck this day. 1:28 pm : I have decided to not do my 'drop it Diet' but rather this diet I found on tumblr. Today is Day 1 and it's a fast. I'll post the actual diet I found below. It promises to lose 20 pounds in 10 days and I am super gullible but also hopeful.  I am so pumped for this. If I could really lose 20 pounds I would honestly cry. I need this weight off now. Today counts as day one. I have had a 1 bottle of water and a black coffee.  11:00 pm : I ended up fasting all day and only having 1 coffee and lots of water. I was out all day with my boyfriend and our friends so I couldn't update much. 

As you know. if you have read my previous entries, I went over the amount of calories I chose was right for me and now I am rightfully taking action, as I should since I weighed in today at 182.8!!!! This is terrible and needs fixing fast, so I created this diet to see how much weight I can lose during these two weeks. Day 1-4 are fasts so I have set a timer I will be showing you throughout the 4 days. For breakfast I'm having water and a big cup of self loathing for this drastic spike in my weight. I would like to work out at least once a day during these two weeks, so I have downloaded an app with various 7 minute workouts to choose from.  In other news, I also have adult stuff to do today that are stressing me the fuck out, but lets hope I get through everything gracefully and tomorrow be a pound lighter.  1:24 pm : As I said a few posts before, on my fast I will be aiming for 2 ltrs of water, 5 teas, 3 coffees and 1 can of diet soda (soda if necessary others are mandator...

So I have been disgusted with how I have been eating lately and decided it was best to make a 2 week meal plan to drop the weight even quicker. For the sake of titling my next 14 updates, I will name my meal plan "Drop it Diet".    Week 1 Fast for the first 4 days 5th-7th  day is dark chocolate mono (darkest I can find - max. 300 kcal) Week 2 Day 1 is one big meal (500 kcal) at 4:00 pm and nothing else all day Day 2 is a fast Day 3-5 is raw vegan (400 kcal) Day 6 is a fast Day 7 : 650 kcal  Wish me luck xx 

I woke up today full of regrets for eating 500 calories so late at night last night but at least I waited until my fast was over, plus, I lost weight! 180.4 lbs bitches! First mini goal weight hit! Now we just have to keep going to 170 to hit the first official goal weight. Today on the HSGD I am meant to have 950 calories but that is so much so I will try (as always) to go much under. I won't stop until I can see my ribs.   5:00 pm : So for lunch I was planning on having the cafe misto from Starbucks with almond milk, but my family wanted to go out for a dinner. I ended up having 1/4 of the coffee (15). then I ordered the thing which looked the least calorific at the restaurant which was a tuna salad, from the plate I took 0.5 cup lettuce, most of an onion, an egg white and about a cup of tuna. I added my own dressing which I made out of vinegar, ketchup and mustard and managed to only eat a total of 268 calories all day ! I think I won't eat anymore for the day as it...

It's Christmas! I woke up in great pain and felt all around pretty terrible, but time with family really helped that. We opened all our presents and I had a bottle of water and a black coffee for breakfast. Now, I will get dressed and go to my dad's house.  My mom has been making a few comments about the fact that I am not eating but she doesn't seem too concerned, thankfully. It is also my 'lady time' so I didn't expect to lose weight today but I weighed in at 181.8 lbs ! A lovely Christmas gift but I really hoped I'd be 180 by now. As you most probably know, I fasted all of yesterday and will be fasting today as well because I'm so fucking done with being fat.  Today on the Healthy Skinny Girl Diet I am meant to be having 1100 calories, but I am aiming for zero. Zero calories, zero me. Most people say it sucks to have a mental or eating disorder during the holidays but I guess I'm just used to it.  11:03 am : I'm at 1 litre of water a...

So yesterday I ate 1200/950 calories I was allowed which is so freaking disappointing to me but thankfully I didn't gain anything! I weighed in today at 182.6 lbs. Maintaining is better than gaining. I am planning on fasting today, I will only be having water, tea, coffee and diet soda but absolutely no food. In other news, I have a few errands to run today but tomorrow is Christmas! and I'm so fucking scared of Christmas dinner!  11:47 am : How did I not think of this earlier? Of course! I don't have to eat tomorrow. If anyone asks why I'm not eating at my dad's, it's because "I'm saving myself for when I go to my mom's" and then at my mom's "I ate waaaay too much at my dad's, sorry". I'll  even act out that I'm in horrific pain from eating so much, can't let those acting classes go to waste. I'm so proud of myself for coming up with this one. That way I get to fast for 48 hours which sounds absolutely ide...

Goooood morning world! I woke up today at 8:45 am and didn't put any liquids (not even water) in my body until 9:30 pm when I weighed myself and I'm 182.4 lbs !!!!!! I lost 2 pounds overnight again . I feel so so happy. I need to continue this low cal restriction for as long as possible. Until I complete all 17 diets. I will be the skinniest bitch you've ever seen. So yesterday I had 372 out of 1000 calories I was allowed.  Today my calories limit is 950 but we all know that means nothing and I will defo go under that. For breakfast I'm having 500 ml water and a black coffee. I'm having second thoughts about eating a lot of calories on Christmas Day... I'm so scared I'll get fatter but I could always fast the next day. I had logged in that I would eat around 900 calories that day but that feels like such a huge number. I guess if I ate half of everything I said I would it could go to 450. I can do 450, but now I got myself all hyped up for fasting... I g...

Starter weight : 187.4 lbs Current weight : 184.6 lbs In four days! I am so freaking happy. I've lost 3 pounds in 4 days! So yesterday I ended up having 279/900 calories and today our goal to go under is 1000. I don't have anything planned today but I would like to work out and rest a little with a hot shower at some point. I know cold showers burn calories but I hate the cold. I forgot to mention yesterday I was so proud of myself because I cooked both my mom and my sister heavy, greasy, high calorie meals and I didn't even have half a bite. Nothing. I cleaned up afterwards and washed my hands and slowly sipped my tea. Progress.  10:30 pm : I never drink green tea out of fear that it will make me hungry but it is honestly my favorite flavor of tea. I am currently drinking a green tea mint tea for breakfast with 500 ml water and listening to remixes of popular songs. Typical morning for me. I woke up around 9:00 am feeling weird, not how I pictured waking up afte...

So I weighed myself today 185.2 !! I went down! I am absolutely so happy that I have already lost 2 pounds on this diet!  I also realized I will have to continue the diet through Christmas but I can pull a few strings so no-one notices. However I am very excited for my family members to see how thin I've gotten by then.  Imagine if I lost 2 pounds a day, well, that wouldn't really leave me room to do the rest of the diets.  Yesterday I ended up hitting 486/800 calories which isn't too bad. Today I have 900 calories to go under as I start my morning with a bottle of water and a cigarette.  New Mini Goal : My boyfriend is stuck a few more days at his job and won't be back until almost new years. I hope to lose another 5 lbs by then and be 180. 2:30 pm : I had a chai tea with no sweeteners or milk and 500 ml water as a late breakfast because I woke up at 12:00. Christmas vacation is really getting to me. I have still had no calories.  I am at a cof...

I have made a big decision; since I have so much time to lose weight, I might as well do every crash diet under the sun and prove that they do work if you just stick to them. I will do every crash diet until I'm thin. Past 120 lbs, until I can feel my bones protruding. I need it.  I will do them in preparation for the ABC diet that I tried and failed so many times, but I was too stupid to see that I was a newbie! With plenty of practice I will soar through it eventually!  Expect daily weigh-ins, occasional before and after side to side comparisons and body checks along with my daily posts and updates about my current intake/weight/exercise and details about the current day of the current diet plan I'm in.  

So yesterday my total intake was 618/900 calories and today we are going for under 800 😎  I finally managed to weigh myself and it is atrocious. 187.4 lbs like when did this happen? 187.4 187.4 187.4 it's so FAT. I am so fat, but I will change, I have to, to prove everyone wrong. to get thinner than my sister, to not be the 'fat one' at all social engagements.  I need to set myself free, one bottle of water at a time.  I have also caught this weird head cold but at least the sore throat prevents me from eating.  I just did the math and I would have to lose 67.4 pounds until September! That is so much, I am so fat. I cannot stand the idea of continuing another day being nearly 200 lbs which is like morbidly obese. I think I'll try to fast today but if something comes up I'll eat like 200-300 calories. I still would like to drink my 2 ltrs of water, 2 teas but no coffee or soda. I need to show lower on the scale.  In other news, my neighbors cat came o...

Today is the first day of my journey on the Healthy Skinny Girl Diet . Every day has a set amount of calories you can consume but I would ideally like to go lower. Along with my daily calorie goal, I have the personal goal of drinking 2 ltrs of water a day, 2 teas, 1 coffee and 1 diet soda (a weird compulsion I have). I ideally also want to do 50 squats or any other exercise daily.  I am 5'9 and I do not know my current weight as I have a scale but it doesn't work, so I will be buying a scale today, but my goal weight is 120 lbs by September 1st when I begin University, studying Psychology 😍 On day 1 I will be having 900 calories or less. For breakfast I had a black coffee and 500 ml of water (one bottle) and did squats while the kettle heated up (50). Today I plan to buy my scale then visit my dad to help him decorate for Christmas. I will bring a bag of mixed greens with me and obviously my phone to count each and every calorie that goes into my mouth. I would like to h...

I suppose I should introduce myself; let you know who I am and how I got here, maybe even a reason for why you should stay for a while.  My name is Lia and let's just say I live on an island in the Mediterranean; because I do.  I am nearly 21 years old and failing miserably at this little thing called 'life'. I began screwing up at around 7 when my parents got divorced and the dumbwad of a spleen called her new husband moved in. I began obsessively exercising and eating less and less. By 12 I was diagnosed with full blown Anorexia Nervosa. I hit my lowest weight of 99 pounds. Only to find out a few years later than I also have BPD. I get on with life, trying my hardest to push through the intrusive thoughts but lately they have been overbearing.  I went on a few platforms to journal my thoughts but got deleted for being too triggering. So, I am saying a trigger warning now : disordered eating behaviours, drug and alcohol abuse and general BPD ish which can be pretty fre...